21; Great things to come ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿป๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿƒ

Soooooo. At the end of July/ the beginning of August, I had a few events that completely threw me off the dieting wagon! I had a camping holiday, where I ate EVERYTHING in sight… and then came my 21st birthday ๐ŸŽ‰ so for a good 3 weeks I was completely off plan! I avoided blogging and social media and was SO close to giving up. 

Then, a wonderful lady who I follow on Instagram messaged me and asked me how I was and explained that she felt she was in the same boat, we were struggling! There is nothing worse than struggling alone! 

This is when I decided to create a Whatsapp group for all the people who need someone to turn to when they’re struggling. It has been such a success! It’s so nice to be able to turn to a group of people when you’re about to stuff your face with cake! 

That night I looked in the mirror and thought… ‘Beth, you’re such a fat bastard’ and I started being emotional on the Whatsapp group. The same lady then popped up and told me ‘you NEED to stop being negative towards yourself and be positive about the future, because being negative will only bring you down even more’ … this hit me. This is EXACTLY what I NEEDED to hear. 

Anyway, so the following day I was determined to stay on plan; the day after that was weigh day. I also decided SW was the plan I was going to stick to, back to basics!  

From then I stayed on plan! YAY! I got weighed the next day … I gained 6lb on holiday! SHIT! ๐Ÿ˜ฉ 

I didn’t let that get to me! ๐Ÿ™…๐Ÿป

I then said to my lovely consultant, in group, that I was going to lose  all the 6lb I’d gained in this next week! 

Thankfully, I am now back on plan and I am feeling so confident about staying on plan and getting to target ๐ŸŽฏ 

I’m going to stay on SW as I’ve figured that restricting the AMOUNT I eat, is the reason I usually fall off track… 

I will continue to write blogs in my free time, and I will start reviewing things that I haven’t already! ๐Ÿ˜˜ 

Please forgive me for being a lazy cow ๐Ÿฎ and Thankyou SO much for following me, I LOVE YOU ALL โค๏ธ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป๐Ÿƒ 

Epilepsy and I ๐Ÿ’Š

Helloooo my absolute stars โœจ first off, Thankyou for making your way to my page,  I appreciate it majorly! and I’m also sorry if you follow me on a pure Diet basis, as this won’t be very diet related! 

So, if you’ve followed me for a while on Instagram, you’ll be aware of some of my epileptic journey.

One of the main reasons why I wanted to write this blog is because I had no f*cking idea what these ‘seizures’ were to start with, and if I can help even just 1 person out there who may be thinking ‘what the hell is happening to me?!’ That would be my aim in life complete  โœ… 

So, it all started when I was 13! I was in year 8 or 9 at school, believe it or not that was a while ago! 

I was in a P.E lesson, playing basketball (which I was shit at ๐Ÿ˜‚). And all of a sudden I stopped, stood still and all I remember is staring at the floor thinking ‘what the f*ck’! 

I didn’t think anything of it and carried on with my shitty school day! Little did I know these ‘things’ were going to haunt me for years to come! 

So, what happens? THIS is the MOST IMPORTANT bit that I would LOVE everyone to read! 

It all starts with a 2 second initiation phase, kind of like your brain is warning you it’s happening. You can just feel it coming… This is the BEST time to yell for assistance! 

Then your brain starts playing scenarios as if you were having DEJAVU. This is the biggest symptom in order for a doctor to pinpoint that this is epilepsy. 

You have no control, your brain stops, you can’t stop it, and you can’t focus. It’s almost like your brain shuts off and does it’s own thing. 

You stand still and can’t speak, it’s like you’re paralysed! 

Afterwards, you feel like a zombie! You become so drained and shattered, and not to mention wobbly! You have to catch your breath (and potentially saliva) which you’ve just lost for the length of the seizure! 

Now when I started having these seizures around people, I’d mention that they’d last around 30 seconds, to which whitnesses would respond ‘oooh no, it was more like 3 minutes!’

This was so so scary for me! So ofcourse I went to the doctors. 

Long story short, I’d been going to the doctors for years, 4 years to be precise. 

The first few times I went, the doctor would say, you’re just stressed OR you’re having a panic attack… 

I stressed to them on several occasions that I was NOT stressed at the time of them occurring! There was no pattern and nothing in particular that set them off! 

One doctor even said, ‘but you’ve been referred already, and there’s nothing wrong with you’ …. NO I HAVENT! ๐Ÿ˜ก 

I even googled my symptoms once, which is obviously not recommended, as it’ll more than likely suggest you’re dying… but it came up with this certain type of epilepsy, so I mentioned it to the doctor… ‘ *GIGGLES* don’t be silly, You don’t have epilepsy!’ 

I was getting so angry! These attacks were getting more frequent and even worse! I started getting numb hands during the most recent ones I’ve had. Anyway… 

One day, I was so fed up and quite frankly worried to death, that I called the doctors and asked for an immediate appointment! 

That day was my lucky day! ๐Ÿ€ 

It just so happened that my doctor was off sick, and there was a replacement doctor on. I was literally screaming at the poor guy! God help him! 

And then he said something that I literally could have kissed him for! 

‘It sounds to me, by what you’re describing, like you’re suffering from something called Temporal Lobe Epilepsy.’ 

Shiiiiiit…๐Ÿ’ฉ

Scary. 

BUT WHAT DID I SAY?!?!?!?! IVE BEEN SAYING THIS FOR YEARS, AGHHHHHHH 

ANYWAY! So he referred me to the hospital and I began to see a neurologist. The first time I saw my neurologist and explained my symptoms, he concluded exactly the same thing! I’d felt so neglected by my doctors! Although I’m not complaining because my neurologist is absolutely sexy AF ๐Ÿ˜ˆ (let’s hope he doesn’t see this!) 

I had an MRI (awful things!) 2 EEG’s and several ECG’s…

Then finally, THIS Monday just gone, 3rd July 2017, after 7 years of thinking ‘what the f*ck is wrong with me’ … I was diagnosed with Temporal Lobe Epilepsy. 

Best, yet most odd day of my life ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป 

So, all i’d like to ask of you guys, is… 

Please be aware that Epilepsy isn’t just the type where people face-plant the floor and shake mega loads. What I have is a type of ‘absent’ Epilepsy and it’s just as scary and dangerous! ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป

I’ve had so many lovely messages from so many gorgeous people, and if you’re reading this then please know that I love you with all my heart! โค๏ธ

Thankyou for reading, my absolute gorgeous friends and family ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿƒ 

Nutri-bombz are DA BOMB ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ˜›๐Ÿƒ

So, nutri-bombz. Yet another purchase which we often see made by fellow slimmers. 

I don’t really think I can write a massive review on these, as I don’t think I can say that much! 

They. Are. Gorgeous. 

The lighter box, 36 CALS a ‘bomb’ – they’re so tasty ๐Ÿ˜‹ and for that amount of calories, I know I personally didn’t expect much, but they are fantastic! 

I also purchased the normal box on Subscription which contains bombz of all different sorts of flavours and calories, BUT, I was surprised to see the calories are STILL quite low, ranging from 49 to 80. 

Some people have asked me if the coating of seeds are weird or if they’re an off put, but personally I really enjoy them! This is obviously what makes them more of a healthy choice so no, I don’t mind at all. 

And again some people who have purchased have said they don’t like the seed surroundings but not all the bombz have this. So I’m sure if you asked this lovely company to not give you those certain ones, they would probably replace them with an alternative flavour ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป 

For me they’re so so tasty and flavoursome that one or two is enough. It sorts the chocolate or sweet craving you may have and the energy they give you is phenomenal. And with the small amount of calories/syns used, even BETTER! ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป

Some well known Insta slimmers will have fabulous codes which entitles you to a cheaper first box, so I’d get up on that if I were you. I find that, for what they can do for your cravings, ยฃ6 for 12 bombz is pretty fantastic. And that’s without a discount! 

I personally love them and if you’ve seen my reaction to them on my Insta stories, that should surely be enough to make you want to try them! ๐Ÿ˜‚ 

Thanks for reading my lovely friends and followers ๐Ÿ˜ I’ll drop their link below ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป๐Ÿƒ 

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Nutri-Bombz ๐Ÿซ๐Ÿช 

Dieting + Baby = ๐Ÿ’ฉ

So I’d just like to take this opportunity to thank all you lovelies, who have tuned in to read my blog, it means so so much and I appreciate the support more than you’ll ever know! 

So, dieting with a baby. You’d think it wouldn’t be too much of a problem, but it really is. The main point to this blog is to emphasise that you mama’s out there, are not alone! 

Why is it so difficult do you ask? Well. YOU try eating your brekki in front of a 10 month old and you’ll see for yourself how well that goes down! ๐Ÿ™ƒ

At first it wasn’t too hard, all babies do at first is eat, sleep, eat, sleep. It’s quite easy to squeeze your lunch in. Even a Slimming World lunch, which probably requires some prep and cooking time! 

BUT… when the cheeky monkeys start to grow and somehow receive the energy of a sportsman all day long, it gets slightly more complicated. 

Suddenly, what’s yours is theirs. They’re climbing up your leg; tugging away at your trousers. And the older they get, they learn how to throw a tantrum if you don’t respond to them! 

You cannot eat in front of a baby! Unless you give them a biscuit ofcourse… and yes, sometimes I do that, because it’s the only way I can eat in peace. Does that make me a bad mum? 

Some mums, including myself sometimes choose to wait until nap time to eat, and that in itself is difficult! Hunger can come and go by the time the child surrenders. 

Babies become more demanding as they grow, and they require LOTS of attention. Sometimes I don’t even get the chance to eat. Sometimes I do skip a meal completely! Although I don’t complain too much now because it’s a calorie saving bonus ๐Ÿ˜… 

You’re probably thinking ‘well, how does this affect your diet?’ 

I’ll tell you how. Being a mum is exhausting, don’t get me wrong it’s the BEST job in the world! But when you’ve been running around after a wreckless child for the best part of 16 hours, a salad isn’t always your first choice. 

I know I’d easily be able to neck atleast 4 bottles of wine a night if I could get away with it … I don’t know about you lot ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿท 

But it’s EXTREMELY easy to make the excuse of ‘I deserve it’ or ‘it’s been a tough day’ in order to eat something naughty… and again don’t get me wrong, sometimes that is completely acceptable! but not constantly! Being a mum is a constant job; when is there a day that’s not going to be a tough day?! so the excuses CANT CONSTANTLY BE MADE. Or you won’t progress. It will NOT get you where you dream of being. 

And this is what I had to tell myself, nevermind anyone else! 

Although, when are we going to learn, that the feeling we have the morning after having a binge, should be enough to put us off doing it again? It’s like childbirth, you just seem to forget… Oh well ๐Ÿ˜‚

Everyday, I now think of the reason I put down, as to why I joined Slimming World in the first place. For my son. 

I initially wanted to lose weight so that I wasn’t that fat mum running around the playground. I didn’t want to be the mum sat on the bench because I didn’t have the energy or Fitness to join in. 

So although my gorgeous baby boy may 

  1. Be the reason I became fat in the first place ๐Ÿ˜‚
  2. Be the reason I want to eat 2374920037 chocolate biscuits a day

I have to also remember that he is the one miraculous reason why I NEED to lose weight. 

It’s so so tough being a mum with a young baby AND dieting. I get it, sometimes you can’t be arsed. Sometimes a takeaway would be much less hassle. But will it make you feel any better in the long run? No. 

So although it’s hard; when I’m running around that playground in a few months time, I know I will thank myself much more for sneaking off into the kitchen to munch on an apple, than I would from eating 6 whole Snickers Bars! ๐ŸŽ 

Thanks for reading, you gorgeous souls ๐Ÿ’–

Don’t be afraid to drop me a message, even if you simply just need a chat ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿปโค๏ธ๐Ÿƒ

 

Slimming World VS Calorie Counting ๐Ÿ”๐Ÿฃ๐Ÿซ๐Ÿ‘

So, back in September 2016 I joined Slimming World. And as I have said in previous blogs, it was the BEST decision I’ve ever made when it comes to losing weight. 

Being in a group where I know I’m not alone is extremely comforting and encouraging! 

It all started fantastic! Every week I’d have MASSIVE losses of around 3.5-5lb. I’d get the shiny stickers… receive Slimmer of the week pretty much EVERY week, and Slimmer of the month EVERY month! Losing weight was great! 

I think it’s pretty standard for the weight to drop off quickly at the beginning; the more you have to lose the quicker you lose it, kinda thing. 

I love Slimming World because you can eat as much food as you like, obviously within the guidelines! But it’s fantastic. And I think this is what attracts most people! 

Now if you’re reading this and you’re losing weight perfectly, then I wouldn’t do anything different just yet. I mean why would you? You enjoy that free food! ๐Ÿ˜ 

But for me, There came a point around 4 weeks ago where I hit a wall. My weight was not budging! I’d either be gaining half a pound, maintaining, or even after an extremely good week, I’d only lose half a pound. 

I then fell off the wagon completely and binge ate for a whole week! It was that bad that I gained 7lb … yeah, in 1 WEEK ๐Ÿ˜ต 

As Instagram is so frickin’ awesome, I turned to my followers and explained I was struggling (I’m always 100% honest with my Instagram family) to which one of my dearest SW friends referred me to a lovely lady, who is now my absolute favourite, but anyway…  She had done Slimming World and had come to the same point that I am at now.

And this is when I heard about Calorie Counting and My Fitness Pal. My Fitness Pal is an app that tells you how many calories you can have a day, and it allows you to track your meals by simply scanning ingredients etc! It has a quick questionnaire when you first download it, including how much you want to lose, to which it then determines your calorie intake! ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป 

So, I downloaded it, filled it in and started to give it a go! 

The first day of calorie counting was AWFUL. I was constantly hungry on that first day! But I knew it was like anything, say for instance, giving up smoking. The first day is always the hardest, but it’s for a good outcome, remember that! 

Anyway, as the week went on, it got easier and easier. Weigh day came… 5.5LB LOSS! Whipeeeeeee ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป

I was over the moon. That had been the true biggest loss I’d had in so sooo long! 

Second week was star โญ๏ธ week, and I told myself, ‘oh here we go again, that’s another week I won’t lose and possibly even gain’ … I lost 2LB! ๐Ÿ˜ต 

I then thought it was safe to say that this Calorie Counting malarkey was doing its thing! It was working for me! Grand! To be honest, I no longer felt like I was on a ‘diet’! 

I do still follow the basics of SW alongside Calorie Counting, and I still pay attention to Syns and Healthy Extras most days. BUT the BEST THING about Calorie Counting is that if you’re out and about, or really fancy a certain snack, you can just add it to your calorie count and still lose weight perfectly! Guilt free! I don’t feel like I have to worry when I’m on the go, if I have to pop into a shop and buy something quick and easy to shove down my throat… I CAN do! ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜

Some people may see it as a pain to count calories all the time, but the My Fitness Pal app makes it 100000x easier to track, and for me I believe it’s worth it. 

One piece of advise I will give and that id like my viewers to think about, is that there isn’t only just 1 diet out there. If you’ve hit a wall with one, don’t be afraid to try another! I know that for me, including Calorie Counting into my life made me feel guilty at first, because I’ve been doing SW for so long! But it’s whatever works best for YOU! And Calorie Counting has worked for me, and I’m so thankful that I came across it! ๐Ÿ˜ 

I do stress though, if you are doing brilliantly on Slimming World, then stick to it! Don’t change just because I said so. You wouldn’t jump off a bridge if I said so would you? (PLEASE DONT.) 

If you have any questions at all about Calorie Counting, then PLEASE don’t hesitate to send me a message โค๏ธ 

I’ll pop a picture and a link to the app below so you can download the correct one if you fancy giving it a try! 

I hope this helps anyone who may be feeling stuck or hopeless with their weight loss journey ๐Ÿ’–

And once again, Thankyou ever so much for reading! ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿปโค๏ธ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿƒ 

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My Fitness Pal ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป

Lo Dough review ๐Ÿ•๐Ÿฅ™๐ŸŒฏ

So, Lo Dough! I stumbled across this product when I started following one of my favourite Slimming Instagrammers. 

That day was probably the best day of my Slimming journey! 

I saw my lovely friend post about this, so as an intrigued slimmer, I clicked on the link and checked them out. 

First thought? ยฃ5?! For 2 SLICES! ยฃ28!!!!! for 14 slices? NO THANKYOU. 

I kept on seeing Lo Dough being promoted and more and more people purchasing it, thinking… are they mad?! 

Long story short, I said f*ck it, and bought the 2 slices for ยฃ5 ๐Ÿ˜’ let’s see what all the fuss is about! 

Before it even came, I was becoming more and more aware of the fabulous meals you could create with it… one of them being PIZZA ๐Ÿ• apparently it makes an epic pizza base! 

Anyway, my Lo Dough came (quick delivery I must add!) and I was extremely excited! 

I opened the parcel to discover the pieces were bigger than I expected! Which is always good for a foodie ๐Ÿ™ˆ 

39 Calories, or 2 Syns on SW? This must have been the biggest persuader! A decent wrap or pizza base with white bread… I repeat WHITE BREAD, for such low calorie count/syns? YES PLEASE. ๐Ÿ˜

I opened the sealed packaging (well packaged too ๐Ÿ˜‰) and again… my first thought? This smells weird…


Was it because I hadn’t smelt white bread in so long? Maybe ๐Ÿ˜‚ 

Basically it smells like fresh Dough, which if you go into a supermarket when they’re freshly baking, can be slightly over powering! 

But, DO NOT let that put you off! 

Also in the box, there were some recipe cards, which I thought was cute! Because if you’re as lazy as I am, I can’t be bothered searching for recipes, especially if I’m hungry ๐Ÿคค 

That night, I used one of the tips in the recipe cards and fried the bread lightly, to find that it turned out JUST LIKE a pitta naan bread thingy that you get a kebab in.

My partner was like ‘does it not taste like cardboard’ meh meh meh. 

No. It. Did. Not! It was absolutely delicious! 

For white bread that is low calorie/syns, this has to be the best product I have ever discovered so far on my weight loss journey! 

The day after, I tried it just as it comes, as a wrap ๐ŸŒฏ thinking that I may not like it because of the initial smell… but it was soooo good! So FLUFFY and SOFT ๐Ÿ˜ it was like eating actual bread, eeeeek. So much better than a thin, cardboard like Bfree wrap! 

I have yet to try pizza with it, as I have an order on the way! I will be updating you all when I have the pizza ofcourse. PLUS if you follow me on Instagram you’ll more than likely see it too ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ•

For anyone who is gluten intolerant, this bread is GLUTEN FREE too, so another awesome reason to give it a try! 

And as for the price? How much would you spend on a Domino’s pizza? Hmm that’s what I thought ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป

I overall think everyone should give this product a go atleast once, but be aware you probably will want to order it again! ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿคค

I shall insert the link below if you’d like to check them out! 

Thankyou so much for reading! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿปโค๏ธ๐Ÿƒ

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Lo Dough ๐ŸŒฏ๐Ÿฅ™๐Ÿ•


Coming soon…ย 

Thursday 29th June 

MORNING: Lo Dough Review ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป๐Ÿƒ

AFTERNOON: About my Calorie Counting Journey ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ”

To Skinny Caffe or not to Skinny Caffe? โ˜•๏ธ๐Ÿ’–

Well, I know people may be thinking ‘oh god, not another skinny caffe post’ or ‘here we go, she’s trying to sell us this shit again’. 

So let me just say, NO. I do NOT get paid to promote, I do NOT get any special treatment. I’m just doing this as I’ve had such a good experience with it, and I’d love to share it with you lovely lot! โค๏ธ

I was that person at first who thought, ‘oh, not again’ when I saw someone promoting it. But I had some spare money at the end of the month, and I thought I’d treat myself and give it a try. Because I don’t really like to judge something before I’ve even tried it! 

I said on my Instagram stories that I would be 100% honest, and I was! If something is crap, I will tell you! My first week on it was shite! But that’s because I’d not eaten well and I’d had about 382994829948 takeaways.  

And I must therefore point out that just because it’s called ‘Skinny’ Caffe, does NOT mean it will make you Skinny instantly. You have to work with it. Eating clean and healthy (on SW/CC) and sometimes exercising… I say sometimes because I’m not a fan ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ˜‚ 

So far, I use the Skinny Caffe tea, Daytime + Nighttime detox ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿปโ˜•๏ธ I’m currently waiting for my Vanilla coffee to be delivered along with the Hot chocolate, and I shall review them when I try them ๐Ÿ˜

In my second week of using Skinny Caffe, when I was actually back on plan and not being a binge eating psycho… I noticed so many changes in my routine, body and appetite! And this is what it’s mainly all about! Not to mention a 5.5lb loss! 

Pro’s of Skinny Caffe (FOR ME): 

  • Reduces bloating 
  • Morning energy boost (needed especially looking after a 10 month old maniac!) 
  • Reduction in snacking/appetite 
  • Better rest/sleep (using nighttime detox tea) 


And most importantly, the flavour is ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC (if you like herbal type tea anyway, that is) ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ˜ 

This last week, i have endured my monthly lady time, Star โญ๏ธ week as we call it on SW, and I’ve still lost 2LB. Now that has NEVER happened. So I will give credit to Skinny Caffe, as I feel using their products has de-bloated my stomach MASSIVELY! ๐Ÿ˜‡

One other thing, and I will warn you of TMI … since giving birth, pooping has been quite difficult, and I seem to have gained quite a few IBS symptoms recently! But since having the Skinny Caffe products, I now visit the toilet more regularly and most importantly pain free, which is always handy for weigh day… when I want to weigh a pound or 2 less ๐Ÿ˜‚

I will finally say, That it is not for everyone. And if you still think it’s all a pile of shite, I still love you ๐Ÿ˜˜ but I would highly recommend giving it a go, even if you only get a small order. ESPECIALLY if you suffer with poop problems or IBS, as that has been the biggest relief for me! 

So Thankyou guys so much for reading this review! I hope this blog has been helpful for you, if you were maybe on the fence about trying Skinny Caffe! 

I do have a discount code, but if you’re on Instagram you’ll probably know of ‘more percentage off’ codes from others, than what you get with mine, so ๐Ÿ˜‚ if not, pop me a message and I’ll send you mine ofcourse. And it’s also in my Instagram Bioโค๏ธ 

I’ll pop a link below if you’d like to check them out or maybe do a cheeky purchase! 

Thanks again, my lovelies! ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿƒ 

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The Skinny Caffe ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿปโค๏ธโ˜•๏ธ๐Ÿƒ

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What life has thrown at me, and how I cope ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป

So, I want to start by saying that I’m not about to rant about how bad my life has been, because I’m sure we’ve all had it tough… just maybe in different ways! 

But I will tell you about the times where my weight has been affected! Because my MAIN aim is to be here for you guys, and to reassure you that if you’ve gone/ go though anything similar, it’s only human, you’re not alone, and there’s a light at the end of the tunnel! โ˜€๏ธ 

So firstly, my weight has been yo-yoing my WHOLE life. It’s almost like food controls me! It always has and probably always will! But I just LOVE food ๐Ÿ˜ 

It started when I was around 10. Primary school. It was like a viscous cycle! I wasn’t the prettiest child… let’s say that. So I was bullied quite a bit! I was moved schools 4 times and NOTHING changed. So then in order to try make myself feel better, what did I do? I ate. Everything. My main go to food? BREAD. A WHOLE LOAF. I am indeed an emotional eater. And this is probably where it stemmed from. 

But then what happened? I got bullied for being fat! And ugly! Then I’d go running home straight to the fridge. VICIOUS CYCLE! 

I did this for about 3 years. Then one day my mum said to me. ‘No one can help you, but yourself.’ BOOM ๐Ÿ’ฅ 

From that day, I made the decision that I was going to lose this weight. I was going to prove to everyone that I could be beautiful and skinny…..

And that’s exactly what I did. In 6 months, I lost 6 stone. I ate only meat, veg and fruit. That was NOT a good diet and I DO NOT recommend it. Because as soon as you stop that diet, you put it STRAIGHT back on. 

I was 9st 7lb, the smallest I’ve been since being a young child! And that was probably when I was about 7 ๐Ÿ˜‚ I felt great! 

Then through my teenage years, I got into a few relationships which affected my weight gain/loss! I think it’s pretty standard to gain a few pounds (maybe stones) in the course of a relationship, but because I’d used that stupid no carbs diet, when I let myself go, I gained quite a lot! And as I’ve already stated, I’m an emotional eater, so when breakups occurred, I ate the whole house!

Then after a month or so of getting over the relationship, I’d hit the same silly diet again. Join the gym. At one point I was mega fit! But eating quite literally zero food. 

I then went a step too far and started taking a foreign substance that was supposed to naturally burn fat and give you ‘energy’, and one night I took one scoop too many, hoping I’d wake up a few pounds lighter. That night, I ended up in A&E because I was spewing my guts up, literally. Please please please, if you EVER think of going to this extreme, DONT! It’s so sooo dangerous. 

Then I took a back seat and gained a couple of pounds, but I wasn’t completely out of control, which was good! 

But then I went to University! Everything was then about impressing people, and I got so paranoid and anxious about the way I looked… I started restricting everything I ate, I started smoking to try stop food cravings (which is fine for others, I don’t judge ofcourse! But that’s not for me) and other substances because I was led to believe it would do great things. It didn’t. 

I then got into a relationship, where he kept hinting that I should probably cut back on what I eat. He was manipulative to say the least. That’s NEVER okay! If anyone ever does this to you, PLEASE don’t stand for it. I got so upset and became depressed. I stopped eating. Which isn’t good either! 

Then I became pregnant ๐Ÿคฐ๐Ÿป 

Food. Food. Food. Food. Food. That is ALL I EVER thought about. Food on the brain. ๐Ÿ˜‚

I ate so much, everyday! I used the excuse ‘well I’m eating for 2‘ from day 1, even though that’s technically only true in the last trimester. Silly me. So as you may have seen in my first blog, I gained just short of 6 STONE. Oh dear. 

But to be honest, I didn’t care. I brought a beautiful baby boy into the world ๐ŸŒŽ and that changed my view on EVERYTHING. Although a midwife on the after-ward did say to me – ‘it’s obvious that you’re obese’ And that REALLY got to me. That gave me a boost to obviously shift the weight, but now being responsible for a little human, I didn’t want to do it stupidly.

A friend mentioned Slimming Word and I thought, let’s give it a go! The slogan: ‘ Its not a diet, it’s a lifestyle change’ really appealed to me, as that is exactly what I wanted! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป 

Where am I now? Well, as you will have seen, I’ve lost 3st 10lb with SW, and I’m still going!

 I’ve hit walls, I’ve yoyo’d some weeks, but not half as bad as I have before. I haven’t had to starve myself, I haven’t stopped eating carbs, I haven’t taken stupid substitutes! I’ve had a binge now and then but nowhere near as bad as before! 

I have recently added Calorie Counting into the equation, which I’ll do a separate blog about, but the main point is, I’m back on it! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป 

So there you go! There’s some of the main issues in my life that have affected my weight. How do you get through it? Experience! Learning from mistakes! 

If I could give some tips to any of you lovelies that may be reading…  you have to do this for YOURSELF. Don’t do it for anyone else, they can f*ck themselves. Impress yourself, do it so that you can look in the mirror and think, ‘Damn, I LOOK GOOD’. You CAN do it! 

And as I said at the beginning, YOU’RE NOT ALONE! remember that, because there will always be someone to talk to, and someone who is feeling exactly the same not too far away! 

I know I probably can’t stop people from going to the extremes, but I hope if anyone has thought about doing so, and is reading this, that my blog has maybe persuaded you not to. โค๏ธ

I would say I’ve had A LOT of experiences with dieting, and I would definitely promote a healthy diet such as SW or Calorie Counting, because it’s the safest, and most enjoyable way! ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป 

So Thankyou for being nosey and reading all about my life and the struggles.  I massively appreciate it! If you feel like you want to message me about ANYTHING mentioned in my blog, or even anything at all, PLEASE DO

Lots of love, love, LOVE ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿƒ